It has been two days since I decided to start a shopping ban and I have already slipped. Or have I?
Since opting for a shopping ban, I have unsubscribed from all stores’ emails and apps on my phone. I paid my bills early from two stores just in case their email payment reminders didn’t reach my inbox. I have also managed to separate a full bag of clothes for sale/donation and my part of the closet is now within its limited space (and not overflowing to my boyfriend’s side as it used to). I am proud of my decisions so far and I know there is still a lot I can do. So why is it that I may have slipped?
Well, Christmas is here. This year has been a crazy rollercoaster for all of us. It is 2020 and I believe everyone has unfortunately gone through challenges of their own. My year started with the loss of my mother’s fiancé. That shook our grounds. Although he had his own perks, he loved my mother and me. That was the first time I experienced the loss of someone close to me and it was devastating. He left four beautiful daughters who showed strength and unity in a way that was really inspiring to me, but he also left his own fiancée, my mother. Slowly, things fell into place during the year with my mother moving to her own place and getting used to a new routine (in Covid times, nonetheless). She is doing much better now, but I knew the end of the year holidays would be tough. So I decided to host dinner for us in my house. We have to wear masks and my mother insists on sitting on the bistro table instead of the dining table with my boyfriend and I, but we managed to have a decent Thanksgiving Vegetarian Dinner (more on that later).
I am not a religious person at all. In fact, I consider myself an atheist, but Christmas has a whole special meaning. It is the time for families to get together and celebrate. For me, it is also only the first day of celebration since my grandmother’s birthday is on the 26th and mine is on the 27th. It brings me so many good memories of being with my family, something that hasn’t happened in years since we are all in different parts of the continent now. Most recently, it was also the day I used to go to my mother’s place and spend Christmas with my mother, her fiancé and his daughters. This year, I wanted to start new traditions for the holidays, which brings me to the topic of today’s post.
For Thanksgiving, I made an invitation to send to my mother and worked hard on a vegetarian menu that included two different salads, spinach and artichoke dip, plus a delicious cauliflower casserole. For Christmas, I decided to go with what we always had in my stepfather’s place, pizza. The modification is that it will be homemade and from scratch. Hence, I needed a few kitchen utensils, a pizza cutter and a pizza pan ($20 for both). I did not spend this from my own money, it was rather from an Amazon gift card. So, did I slip so soon? I am going to say no. For one, I could order pizza, right? No, that’s on the shopping ban prohibitions. Two, I love to cook and it is even more special for me to be able to make dinner for a special holiday with my family. Three, isn’t it better to just cook/bake at home? Learn new recipes and be more self-sufficient? This shopping ban is not supposed to be a punishment, but a learning experience (Cait said so herself). The difference from a few-weeks-ago me and the me who made these purchases yesterday is that I put so much thought into it. I questioned the need for these purchases, I looked for the cheapest/most functional options, and I knew these are utensils I’ll be using in the future too.
I don’t regret my purchases, I know they will be useful, but I wanted to be transparent with whoever reads this and with myself.
On a side note, gifts for others are allowed on my shopping ban list, so Christmas gifting is still happening, just on a much smaller scale.
This is the invitation I sent my mother (I used Canva to create it). Happy Holidays!